I have been getting a number of PMs and emails recently concerning my sudden disappearance from the band so...
1) Yes I am still alive.
2) No I have not abandonned this group of degenerate ass wipes.
3) Yes I still know more than all of you... combined.
4) No neither Orc, TenTallBen, or their wives, kidnap me on their latest trips to the Gulf Coast.
5) No I did not commit suicide when the Chiefs started out the season 0-2
6) No I am not camped outside of any Pac 10 officials home waiting for their return.
7) Yes I am on medication... too much if ya ask me.
In all seriousness and candor I am just going through a lot right now in my life. I posted this at another soonerboard that has also been inquiring to my where abouts...
SunCoastSooner wrote:I'm still around. I don't often log in though I visit about once a week. Be thankful because that is more than I visit any other site other than my email.
Things are really rough right now out here for me. I found a growth on my back awhile back and in just a couple of weeks/months it had gone from the size of my pinky to the size of a golf ball protruding the right side of my spine. I finally had it checked out last May and my doctor sent me to another doctor and they did a biopsy.
My wife left me and went to stay at her parents that same week and two days later I found out the tumor was cancerous. The first step was an unsuccessful surgery and now I have been in treatment for 2 1/2 months. The first few weeks I was a wreck and was drinking pretty heavily. Some of my friends and one of my doctors (he is the same bowling league as a couple of my friends) grabbed a hold of me and got me back to a semi normal state. I am also seeing a psych once a week . I have been trying to work things out with my better half but I fear there is about to be a hellacious custody fight if we get a divorce. My attorney has assured me that the cards are stacked in my favor because of my job history, education, ability to provide, and the fact that I have been the primary care giver to our daughter for the majority of her life (even by SCT's own admission). The wild card is my health and even my mental health as I am getting really worn down from the treatments and some days it is a struggle to just get out of bed.
I'm also am not allowed to travel to any of the games by doctors orders. I spend Eaxh Saturday at a local bar where there is an OU club that has the games on.
Some days are better than others but I wouldn't term any day recently as a "good" one. I'm pretty satisfied if I can go a couple of hours without welling up with tears any more. I'm pretty scared about what the furture holds; getting to see my daughter grow up, my health, and my marriage or lack there of currently. I've lost almost 50 pounds since May and for those of you who have met me you know I didn't exactly have 50 pounds to spare on my frame.
Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers and I'll check in when the moment suites me.